i think o shall blog about something happy.
even though i know it going to end up emo somehow.

i didn't go to school today.
cause dear weak nessa had to go for a check up.
everybody say whee!
with medication and injections and things like that.

everything is basically settled now.
with her.
thank you for not being angry.
i misplaced your trust and yet you still accept me.
you really are amazing.
we both know you are.
thanks for the wake up call.
i really needed that.
it seems that we gave each other our wake up call didn't we?
but i mean what i say when i said that i'm not going to interfere anymore.

lexine,
you mad child.
haha.
you know i love you so.

the three of us had a conference just now.
lexine, christie and i.
and i found out something.
that you aren't the frend i thought you are.
i thought you came back so that we can pull through.
i thought you accompanied me to the hospital cause you cared.
i thought you were my friend.
but you do these kind of things that make me think otherwise.
you send him mails.
and i don't know what you tell him.
i don't think i want to.
you put your nose in other people's business!
why get involved when it has nothing to do with you in the first place.
you used me as an outlet.
blaming me for so much that has happened.
i accept that.
but by messaging him?
posting stuff on his tagboard?
mailing him?
tagging on her blog?
what the hell are you thinking really?
you want to help.
and be a part of my life.
then do it properly.
not offending me and everyone else in the process and getting your point across.
are you really my friend?
or are you trying to ruin my life.
making it more of a mess then it already is.
claire, i think i need to distance myself from you.
cause i'm getting to see who you really are.
without her around.

precious;
i've talked things out with her.
and things ae pretty much settled.
then what about you?
are things going to work out or is it going to stay the way it is.
i know its no use trying to explain everything to you.
i don't intend to.
and its wrong of me to pretend that it was my plan all along.
you were right.
it was bullshit.
i messaged you.
i told you if there is anything you would like to say.
talk to me when you see me.
cause i think its better that way.
better than on the phone.
i may have made you cry.
i'm really sorry.
i've explained things to her.
and if you want.
i'll explain it to you too.
and i guess you'll see what i said when you were offline.
you told me that it was the little things that mattered.
i know.
just think about what i said alright?
i know it won't be easy for us to pull through this.
its going to be damn difficult for you to trust me again.
but still.
i want to be able to give you your present and your hug on your birthday.
and the dinner which i was so excited about.
because you gave me a sweet sixteen that i'll never forget although i had to study for my exams.
i want to be able to give you a birthday that you won't forget.
and this time.
as a friend.
let me know if you want to talk to me.
face to face.
and if you get upset and cry.
just know that i'm there.
for you to vent your anger on.
or to hold you when you cry.
these are the little things i'm willing to do for now.
so lets just see if we can pull though this.
like we did with the many obstacles before.
its only the two of us now.
cause i'm going to give it another shot with her.
we're both trying.
so what about you.
are you going to give this friendship another chance.
or is there really nothing left to say?

alright.
i said i was going to blog about happy things.
haha.
weel.
for the note.
i hate my class so far.
when happened to W26R?
i missed you all so bloody much!
we were the it class.
haha.
everyone was like.
huh? you're from that class ah?
haha.
love you all to bits!
i hope the new class will warm up soon!
i really hope so.
cause i'm trying to make the effort to go to school no matter how much i hate school.

and work!
haha.
everyone!
i have work on next wednesday, thursday, friday and sunday!
whee!
i hope i get to do more hot drinks la!
did you know.
i've already learnt the espresso machine?
and i can steam milk?
with really good foam like my shi siong says!
hahas.
he's danial by the way.
and i had a perfect shot a few times too!
i'm so happy.
but i had to use so much of strength!
and now my armpit hurts.
haha.
right lexine?
yes yes!
and jimmy is my shifu!
haha
and i'm the disciple!
i think i spelt that correctly.
oh!
and i'm getting transferred to vivocity on the 7th october!
soo woodlands people!
tsk tsk!
its only one bus called 963 all the way there.
and keith.
its nearer for you too!
haha.
visit me!
and i'll make really awesome and yummy drinks for you all!
haha.
and i promise i won't spike your drink!
i promise!
i think all the talk about work is getting me really hyper!
whee!
i like work!
but maybe i have to go to school too yeah?
oh wells.
anything for the money!
like i said.

im materialistic like that.
=))